spare me some time

THIS IS MY 200TH POST!!

AWESOMEEEEEEEEEE ......

anyway, to make this post special, i shall talk about my hair ..

i just realised im balding. what the heck.

why am i losing so much hair?? .. sigh. too much of emotional distress i guess.

damsel in distress :) hahaha ...

i just googled damsel in distress , "She is usually a beautiful young woman placed in a dire predicament by a villain or a monster and who requires a hero to dash to her rescue. "

yes, i need to be rescued. i am balding. i am deprived of hair hormones.
so now, where's my hero?? ...

moving on, i've finished my pre-u studies.
one year just passed by so quickly ..
the holidays have just started and its not as good as i hoped it would be.
well, i spent more time at home than i did when i had my finals. actually, i spent alot of time at home since the holidays started. what the heck.
this is so frustrating.
i would watch the japanese series One Litre of Tears on my laptop in my room the whole day, and cry , cry , cry.
lifeless sial.

but i did go to the movies yesterday and today.
i watched Christmas Carol yesterday with Sean, Melvin and Lim.
two words, boring sial. aku tak suka.
Went to Midvalley today and watched Time Traveller's Wife for the 2nd time!
hehehe .. mannn, what a sad story.

i miss everyone, especially azy, kayme, sean, jocelyn.
cant wait to see them tomorrow :)

oh btw, prom pictures are up on facebook. HEH :D

its sucks that i spend my time just thinking about you.

when you probably dont even care.

always in my heart, P4

heheheheheheehehehehehe :):)

i spent my Friday just rotting at home and watching the television.
very different from all my other Fridays.
its the day when i just wana stay at home, be like a fat lazy pig and eat in front of the tv and sleep as much as i can. hehehe

now that college is over, prom is also over, i feel so empty.
i miss waking up every morning, driving to college, walking into class, seeing my classmates, laughing at the little things, skipping classes for foosball, lunch breaks, going up and down the stairs, rushing to hand up assignments, going in late for classes, celebrating birthdays, cafetaria and all the lame stupid things we would do.

to me, every bit of it was memorable.

every day of college was different and it was because of the people.
they made college life so enjoyable and so much more than i expected it to be.
making it the most memorable year for me. hehehe.
no words to describe how awesome each and everyone of them are,
and to me, they are all special in their very own way.

and they are the reason i wake up every morning, looking forward to go to college.

but now that SAM is over,
i wake up in the morning,
not knowing what to look forward to anymore.

SIGHS.

P.S i miss P4 and you :(

strawberry cheesecake and caramel chocolate chip

if u'd ask me hows life?

i'd say its so much more than awesome right now.

close to perfect actually :)

who knew one night could change everything?

who knew you would do what you did?

who knew we would be where we are today?

i'd say that i didnt see it coming at all and i guess, i realised that there are many things in life that comes unexpectedly. it comes when you least expect it , whether its good or bad.

but in my case, its definitely a good thing.
i knew just right then, that i was the happiest person alive.
i couldnt possibly ask for more. it was everything i wanted.

after everything that has happened this year,
after all the emotions you put me through,
but the moment i saw you standing outside my house,
i knew it was all worth it.

it still remains a mystery to me how we got this far , to today.
before this, i thought it was all over.
but who knew you were so unpredictable?
hahaha .. and this time, in a good way.
and i hope it'll be the same in the future too.

this time , im putting all my trust in you so please dont let me down again.


PS. outta the emo zone :)

i'd come for you

ever felt so used?

like a stupid fool.

yes i am a stupid fool , and i feel like im being used by people. specifically one person actually.

and i dont even mind, thats why im a stupid fool.
but sometimes i get so sick and tired of it.

i always think that its okay, that there will be benefits and i will end up being happy anyway so its okay.
but now, i realised that im just mere stupid.

to actually believe that i was something,
but in actual truth, i never meant anything to him.

i've always told myself that i would do anything,
but whats the point if he only takes it for granted.
he just doesnt care.


he just doesnt know,

how much he means to me.

panic mode

FINALS, TOMORROW! *breathes in breathes out*

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG ...

not prepared at all

*faints*

and im feeling so lazy. i need motivation!
MOTIVATION PLEASE ...

sighhhhh ..

PS. i walked on railway tracks on Friday night :):):)

people change.

just a quick update, im on twitter now :)

so go go, go get twitter! cos i have so little friends that tweets. HAHA TWEETS!
compared to facebook, twitter is like so unpopular in malaysia.
all you have to do is tweet! :):)

anyways, FINALS is in less than a month!
i am not prepared at all.
my trials results sucked so badly , i dont think any uni would accept me.
this week would be the last week of college. how sad.
on the other hand, apart of me wishes college would end earlier so that there would be less college life dramas :(
but i'll still miss my one year in college. lots of bittersweet memories.
cant believe its all coming to an end now and everyone is gona go to diff places.

have not bought my prom dress.
dont really feel like going for prom now actually.
welllll , i was really excited about prom before this but then, things changed.
totally canot wait for the holidays to come! hoping that my plan to go to aussie alone will workout
i wana leave malaysia so badly.
need to get my mind off certain stuffs, so i need a getaway!

im so good at putting on fake smiles.
the only reason i cry is him.
now all thats left are the memories.
and btw, i have really awesome friends.
made me realise that im never alone.
sometimes, i wished i had a brother or sister as well. that would make my life more interesting.

and i love my parents!
just two days ago, i banged my car at the parking lot in subang parade.
the damage was pretty bad.
thank God my parents didnt screw me up and down. they were cool with it and no lecturing or anything. i know im a little bit pampered sometimes okay. hehehe

had bak kut teh in Klang yesterday with my classmates : Jocelyn, Ujin, Daniel W, Freddy, Julian, Daniel Y.
found a worm in our plate of veggie. eeeww gross.
watched Surrogates in the afternoon and didnt really like the movie.
i wana watch The Privates Lives of Pippa Lee! :D

been drinking quite often lately. as in drinking alcohol.
sighsss. and i dont even know why..
maybe its cos of him.

hates staying at home. but since exams are around the corner, im forced to.
trying to resist temptations of lepaking
went for deepavali celebration last night. saw fireworks.
it reminded me of something. something i miss so much and wished i could turn back time.
telling myself that its not worth holding on anymore.
i've gotta let go but i will always remember.

and now, its time to be serious ....
and study.
haha . bye :)

i've returned

HIIIIIIIIIIIIII ...

its been so damn long since i last signed in to blogspot and blogged.
oh my, i didnt realise i abandoned my blog and picked facebook over blogging.

and its so sad that only chayfhun constantly visits my blog. hahahaha ..
*hugs to chayfhun only* ..
so since she asked me to update and its the raya holidays now, so i decided that i should just crap something up here.

eeee... im so excited that im blogging again :)

ohh btw, my trials ended yesterday. i did horribly bad for every paper, except english.
maths was a total disaster. worse than an epic movie or dance flick.
note that both that movies left me speechless, in a very bad way ...
okay, i admit that i didnt study or put in alot of effort for my trials. i slacked, alot.

but i've got one more month to finals. i wont slack this time. i'll study very hard! YESH I WILL!

ONE WEEK BREAK! I AM SOOO HAPPY! ....
time to have fun ;p
cant wait, cant wait!

its the balik kampung season. so i guess that there's gonna be lesser people in KL right?
hahaha .. that'll be awesomeeee ..
which means lesser people in the malls .. i wana go shoppinggggg!!! ..
but mum just wont let me. she says that i've been spending too much.
plus i need to get my prom dress. OH EM GEE! .. PROM IS COMING!!
*breathes in and out* .. YAYYY!

okay i think i shoud go get some sleep. had a weird night of heavy breathing and random hysterical laughs. it freaked him out. i hope i didnt scare him too much :(

i can be abit too emotional sometimes. so bear with me okay?

im sorry ..

i miss pangkor.

i miss him.

yello people!

i just want to say

HAPPY BELATED 18TH BITRHDAY NG SHI MAN!

all our plans to meet up always tak jadi. we seriously have to meet no matter how busy we are!
LOL :)

anyway, sorry for the lack of updates. college as usual, endless workloads.
but still i enjoy everything about college, especially my awesome powsome friends.

MOOT COURT STARTED TODAY!
in case if you dont know what it is, let me tell you what it is then. Its a court session with a judge, juries, lawyers, witnesses and the accused.
everyone in class plays a different role and i'm the secretary to the dude who got murdered.
hahaha.. its gonna last for one whole week. hooray!
then comes the holidays!! .. hopefully the pangkor plan works out! :):)

thats all for tonight.
im so tired out after one whole week of getting up freaking early and coming home late at night.
now, i drive to college everyday baby!!!
time to get some rest, beauty sleep XD

mwahhhh

i could get used to this

Happy Birthday Sarah Low!

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Anyway, its been some time since i've blogged. SO, i've got lots of story to tell! and you have to listen! .. hahaha .. okay, kidding. thats up to you.
i guess some pictures would make things more interesting huh? :)

last month, my cousin got married. no, its not too late to blog about it. Congratulations Samuel!

from left : Catherina, Joey, Caleb, Lena (the bride), Samuel, David, Justina, Sabrina. The LEE cousins.Catherina and me. i used to stayover at her house and played with Barbie dolls the whole day.

The wedding was a nice one. Had lots of good food and red wine that night. HEH.

College.Freddy and i wore the shirt that we bought together from pyramid. it says CHEER YOU UP! with a big yellow smiley face :):)

then we found Rachel from the nex class, wearing another yellow smiley face tshirt and took pictures together XD

on the 19th of June, it was Jade aka Giant's birthday! so we decided to have lunch in Pizza Hut and suprised her with a cake. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GIANT! I LOVE YOU.

Picture taken using Freddy's phone. so chun, can fit 10 people, including the waiter.
Jus, Jo, Kayme

23rd of June, handed in my CPT draft. so so very glad.

on the 24th, had Accounting test using computer. After the test, i went to OneUtama with Sean, Julian and Aiman to watch Transformers in Gold Class BUT unfortunately, tickets were all sold out when we got there.

so, we had dinner in Italiannies and talked for hours! LOL. and i got tipsy after drinking 2 glasses of red wine, and almost fainted when i was walking out of the restaurant.

the waiters got a shock of their life, pretty much. and quickly got me a glass of iced water.

thennnnn, i brought the boys to take sticker pictures! ..

the 27th of June was a historical day. well, for me it was. i drove to subang for the very first time, secretly. mummie and daddie didnt know or they would have killed me.
JiKin and Joshua Q was in the car with me. i would say that my driving skills are not bad, but i know they both would say that its terrible. HAHAHAHA.

later that night, i drove out on MY OWN to meet nick, joshua q, joshua ng and kai rong in KK.
ohhhh, im so proud of myself. CHE WA! :):)

Finally watched TRANSFORMERS! when it seems like the whole world has already watched it.

Sean, Julian and I headed to pyramid after class on Tuesday and got tickets for the show at 5pm.
the show was obviously awesome, and its not cos of Megan Fox!
im waiting to go watch it the second time with Azy!
so after the show, we went to Pasta Zanmai for dinner and met up with daniel wong.
had good food and fellowship. berbonding lah ...

the next day, after English class, my english lecturer requested to talk to me personally. i knew it was gonna be something bad and yes it was. she told me that i've changed toooo much, being very very talkative in class and not paying attention. she says that if im not talking then im sleeping, which is so not true. I DO pay attention in class, just not full attention. Her lecturing went on and on for about 20 minutes. she also said that other lecturers were commenting about how i've changed badly! i wonder whether lecturers actually do gossip about students during their free time .. ???

lets talk about lunch breaks now.

there's this KOREAN street cafe opposite my college. we had lunch there and tho the food was just alright, i felt awesome that day because my classmates made my day :)

evan, julian, daniel wong, sean, me, kayme, jenn, jade, azy and jo. awesome lovely people

my eyebags, me and Kayme.

happy people, happy faces =p

my latest interest : Foosball and Left4Dead ..
explains why i've been going to the cc quite often nowadays, just to play Left4Dead.
skipped maths class yesterday and played the game with Azy and Daniel. they both won but i died halfway while shooting the zombies. LOLOL ..

i suck at foosball but i still enjoy playing it.

and lastly, i wana say HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO DAVID CHEW!

back to college

just to keep my blog alive ...

classes started a few days ago and i've been feeling so lazy everyday. i've skipped a few classes and when im in class, i always fall asleep. its probably because of the 2 weeks break i had earlier where i didnt touch even one book. haha ...
during the holidays i've been going out everyday and it was one fun 2 weeks break.

going back to college was awesome because i missed my classmates but the bad part was getting back mid sem exam results. SIGHS.
as expected, i failed my maths exam again. results for my other subjects are just okay, but definitely not good enough.

another bad thing is that my CPT assignment is due on the 23rd of this month and i've not started doing anything on it yet, not even the outline. and since its a law assignment, there's gonna be lots and lots of reading to do. i need to do a research on whether victims of crime should have a greater say in the criminal system. how the hell am i supposed to prove my point?! .. okay, maybe i can but im too lazy. hahahaha
i hate reading actually. if i google, i'd find a 10000 words article and only a few sentence from the article can be used for my assignment. imagine the torture :(

on a happier note, i passed my driving test. will be getting my driving license very very soon. heeee :)

anyway, i went to Zouk last night for the finale of Loreal StarSearch Season 3. Suprisingly, Janet and i managed to find our way to the club and we were on time. Actually, we were not sure of the way to the club and it was raining in KL but we followed the signboards plus our instincts and we found the place. Met up with the boys inside the club and waited for awhile before the event kicked off. First, there was a fashion show by the finalists then it was talentime and lots of screaming. hahahaha
and even more screaming when the emcee, Liang announced that Matthew won.
the crowd was really loud :)
big congrats to Matthew for winning the competition. heh XD

i didnt take any pictures though. phone's camera sucks ..

ohhh btw, i've got another story to tell. my contact lense tore in my eyes yesterday!
hahahaha ... so yeah, i was walking to class and suddenly one side of my eyes couldnt see properly and it was because one of my contact lense was missing. i suspected that it went to the back of my eyeballs so i rubbed my eyes really really hard to get it out.
but only half came out. the other half was missing.
i kept rubbing and rubbing my eyes but nothing came out so i decided to go to the clinic nearby my college. the doctor there helped me check by folding up my eyelids but he too couldnt find anything.
i was pretty worried. you know, people say you could get blind ..
and my eyes were swollen after that due to all the rubbing.
but later at night when i went to Zouk, my eyes were alright.

and guess what, i found the other half of my contact lense about two hours ago. it was stuck underneath my eyeballs! ..
i dont know how come i couldnt find it yesterday. i was thinking of going to SJMC already. LOL
i was watching a Hindi movie in the afternoon just now and i cried during the movie. then i went to check my eyes in the mirror and found the lense!! .. hahaha
thank you Hindi movie :):)

now its time to go do my CPT.
hugs and kisses.